I read Sara's blog today and she got me thinking. She reminded me that I still have everything that once made the happiest woman on the face of the world: I mainly speak of my husband (drummer boy!). Now I have this void, something is missing, this deep need that pounds deeply into my soul. I can't deny it but I can't also forget that in the meantime I can still be happy. I made a joke today for a friend, I told her I had just woken up at 11 am and that was my "childless couple" holiday tradition. I guess those time will not come back. Maybe someday I'll write a post about how I wish I could sleep in, how hard it is to stay up all night because "Junior" had a cold.
I heard a song today that says: "BU IN THE HARD TIMES, WHEN YOUR WORLD IS GOING IN PIECES, YOU PICK THE PIECES THAT MATTER THE MOSTS" ... So, that is what I am going to do for 2007. I'll take with me what matter the most: my faith, my deep love for my drummer boy, my passion for life, family and friends, my hope for better days and deep appreciation for the lessons learned. Maybe the pieces of the puzzle will never fit the same way they once did, but they are still very important in the grant scheme called MY LIFE
HAPPY HOLIDAYS TO YOU ALL. MAY OUR HOPE BE RENEWED AND MAY WE NEVER FORGET WHAT MATTERS THE MOST (whatever that is for you!)
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