little things in life

A nice cup o coffee, a good movie, baby sleeping, its snowing outside and I have a whole weekend ahead of me... Life may not be perfect but these perfect moments are hard to ignore. Thank you GOD


have a good weekent everybody

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Girl time

We had so much fun!! We went out for pizza, ice cream and shopping!!!!!! YAY FOR GIRL TIME!

Girls just wanna have fun!

I did very well today on my presentation... as a reward boss let me leave a little early today. I am going to pick up my girl and have a fun afternoon at the mall... just us girls! her and I can surely use some retail therapy, after all today is pay day !!!!!
have a great weekend ladies

not betetr but not worse..

Lyla is doing okay... still some running nose but holding on steady. I think her problem is because she is teething, the 2 top ones are coming out. She is not herself, she cries all the time at night, I gave some Tylenol last night, after that she slept better bu still woke up at least 5 times and she was up for good at 5 am. At least I had an audience to rehearse my presentation for today. She loved it , judged by all the clapping and smiles. Thank God today is Friday

again or still?

Lyla is getting worse again, she maybe went back to daycare too soon or it is a new thing since everybody at day care seems to have a cold . She is coughing ,congested and fever again ... OMG, I seriously can't deal anymore, what am I am doing with my baby??? I am failing as a mother , at work I am falling behind, my house is a mess... I look like a mess also. I don;t care about anything else I just don;t want her to be sick all the time.Is it a new thing or just the old cold she that she never got over?

Because she loves me uncondicionaly

and I love her with all my heart. Happy heart day my baby!

what a difference one day makes

look at her.. I have my happy baby back! isn't she so cute??!!!!!!!!!!

another wonderful thing, for 3 nights in a roll Lyla slept 12 hours uninterrupted. I feel so refreshed! nothing like 8 hours of sleep. I hope this is a trend

My precious girl

My little girl went through so much in the past days. She was so brave, I am so proud of her. Here are some pics of our days at hotel Hospital... I am so glad that we are not there anymore and I hope to never come back. I must say that the Children's Mercy hospital is just a fantastic place. Amazing, compassionate, caring, loving staff... Thank to all the nurses, care assistants, respiratory therapist and docs for taking such wonderful care of my baby. You guys rock!


PS" the yellow stuff on her face in some of the pics is not what you think it is, she had just finished eating peaches and it was almost impossible to clean with all the tape and tubes on her face. LOL

WE ARE HOME

It feels like we been through a war... exhaustion doesn't even start to describe how we feel. But our baby is better and that is all that matters. Thank you for all your support

still here

baby is doing much btter, she is off oxygen and iv fluids, it all depends if she starts drinking. She hasn't drank a single 0z since last Friday. Mommy and daddy are not doing well, we both tested positive for influenza, very high fever and just plain tired. We might go home tommorow morning. What a year it has been...

hello from hotel HOSPITAL

Lyla is a little better, but still not good enough to come home. We will probably stay a couple of more days. She refuses to drink any milk, water or juice... at least she is taking some solids. Her father and I have a bad bad cold. We are miserable: achy body, fever, running nose. We tested positive for influenza so we have to wear masks. I slept 2 hours last night and worked 1/2 day today. I am at home now , I wish I could sleep at least a few hours.I am so tired. Lyla only wants me, she wants to be held all the time. We slept together in the recliner chair... not very comfortable. I want her to be better, I want to come home

update

I came home for one hour to get some stuff and take a shower... Lyla is doing better. She was getting progressively worse and today in the morning after 10 hours with the same diaper she was completely dry, I notice the lack of tears and the she was working very hard to breath. We went to the urgent care clinic, The nurse called us to check her vitals and before even saying something she took her for my arms and ran with her. I got so scared!!!!! I ran after her and she told me that Lyla's Oxygen levels were very low and she needed a suction and oxygen ASAP. They acted very fast... and before we knew she was being admit ed. Just today they have performed the suction 3 times to help her breath. it is the most horrible thing. She is on oxygen and iv fluids + antibiotics to her ears. I am exhausted and heartbroken, my poor girl. But now she is better, took some apple juice ans gold fish crackers, and before I left she had a jar of green beans and some peach. Doc said we will see tomorrow where she is at. Her father is with her now and will sleep there with us. My Friends are just awesome, they came, brought dinner, toys for Lyla.. I love them all
Please keep us on your prayers

We r at the hospital

leaving to the doc again. She is not eating, not sleeping, crying ALL THE TIME. Her father is as sick as her, he stayed over to help but he is in very bad shape (It was helpful to have another adult in the house nonetheless). I drop off home after Dr. appt and go to work, I need to finish something really important. I need to sleep so bad... I want her to stop hurting.

RSV

do I need to say more? actually yes... RSV + bilateral ear infection with right ear perforated . F%&$%$%$%. She has been off antibiotics for only 7 days. Doc was very concerned and if she does not get better she may be admitted. They did the most horrible procedure. They brought a machine to aspirate all mucus out of her. they offered for me to leave the room, but I could not leave her alone. Boy oh boy, it is brutal. They took so much stuff out of her. She screamed, bagged for mercy , momma momma, momma save me.. just plain awful. Se felt much better after it, but I am still weak on my knees. Being a parent is not for the faint of heart. Tomorrow we come back for more. We were sent home with instructions to use saline + aspirations every hour (torture as well) and start on antibiotics as soon as possible. She has lost 2 pounds since her 9 month check up. She is not eating much, today she only wants gold fish crackers and a little formula. She is now watching some cartoons because mommy needs to breath for a second.

high fever

Lyla has been off antibiotics for only 7 days because her previous ear infection... only 6 days later she is having fever again, very high fevers . Last night it was 104.5 , it took a while to go down. She has a terrible cough and looks overall miserable. I had to take her to day care (I know,I am a bad mother). baby sitter she has fever again. I am taking ehr to the cod again.. The 4th time in 4 weeks. now it comes the fun part, having to tell boss that I have to leave again. Ex DH can't go, but agreed to stay with her tomorrow morning for me to come and make up the time. Wish me luck my friends. I need to take care of my baby, my boss should understand, but according to him she needs some vitamins because she gets sick too much

Can she get a break?

I seem t lack the ability to keep my baby healthy, she is sick yet again.My boss yesterday had a 2 hours long conversation with me. He told me he was very disappointed that I miss led him when he hired because I was pregnant and did not tell him. I wasn't , but according to him I was panning , so I should have told him. He also told me that I need to work weekends and nights... after all my house is not big and I have only one child, I must have free time after Lyla goes to bed. He said: I overheard you saying you went to the movies last weekend, you should have used this time to work. And he went on... I know you have your "situation" right now but you should give more of my time to work.. you've had lot of drama since
i hired you, a baby, death in the family,lyla gets sick all the time an now this... " He then set deadlines, I have to write a paper by the 23rd of this month. And I was going to ask for some time off. Imagine if I call that Lyla is sick and I need to be home?
I think is time for me to start looking for another job. My biggest limitation is visa and I dont't know how much more change I can handle right now.