Happy Halloween

Hi ladies, I hope that you all have a great day today. I already had all the candy that i could eat in one month....
I took this picture today with this visitor that showed you in my work and also to show my first "maternity" top that my mom sent it to me... I still feel silly using it, but I figure that should give it a try. I am leaving tomorrow to San Francisco for a Conference... so I have to go buy at least one pair of dressy pants and jeans that fit me comfortably... I don't have a bump per se yet but my waist line is definitely larger.. so there you have it , me at 14w5d pregnant...

Guess who got a BFP???

Happy news from Farah! (http://fertilizeme.blogspot.com) CONGRATULATIONS on your BFP my friend. I am so so happy and excited for you!!!!!!!!!!

I hope to hear about many more BFP soon! I think about you all always. Hoping and praying for a miracle for all of you soon.

False alarm

Thank God ... I don't have gestational diabetes. For some reason there was some sugar on my urine but my blood glucose level from Wednesday and Friday were very normal. So was my blood pressure and weight... I've gained 1 1/2 pound so far. I guess I have enough extra weight that I don't need to gain much yet ... baby also souded good (I can't wait to see him/her again!)
To celebrate I went to have a HUGE SONIC burger with a strawberry limeade!
YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thank you all for the good wishes
Have a great weekend

More drama

Today I went to see the midwife because my UTI symptoms have returned. I did the midstream test and nurse comes back from the lab after 15 minutes or so and asks me: ARE YOU DIABETIC??? "Who me??? not that I am aware". It turns out that I have no indications of UTI but they found sugar on my urine. She had me doing a blood sugar test and I have to come back on Friday to talk to my Dr and redo blood and urine test. I am hoping that I don’t have gestational diabetes. 1/2 week ago my urine test did not show anything. Everywhere I read it says that it does not develop until 24 weeks or so, I am only 13 weeks!!! 6 months ago, before I got pregnant my insulin resistance test were bother line... and that sugar in the urine is a strong indication of gestational diabetes. Can this be??? gestational diabetes is no fun...Has anyone had a similar experience and turned out not to have gestational diabetes??? any advise??

The good thing was that the nurse used the Doppler and heard the baby's heartbeat lout and clear. HE/SHE is still here.... and I as freaking out as usal...

Remembering My baby

October 22nd 2005

I'll never forget that day! it was the end of my dreams. Even though it has been 2 years and I am pregant again, I will always remember and mourn the one I never had the chance to meet...
I still think about you baby, about all that could have been with you.

Remembering our babies

. Baby please know that I still think about you often. I think about what could have been, all the dreams we had for you, all the love. You have a place in my heart that will never be taken away.
I want to send my love to all the women that know the pain of losing their little ones. My heart goes out to out of you.

WITH HOPE - a song the always makes me think about you my baby.

This is not at all how
We thought it was supposed to be
We had so many plans for you
We had so many dreams
And now you've gone away
And left us with the memories of your smile
And nothing we can say
And nothing we can do
Can take away the pain
The pain of losing you, but ...

We can cry with hope
We can say goodbye with hope
'Cause we know our goodbye is not the end, oh no
And we can grieve with hope
'Cause we believe with hope
(There's a place by God's grace)
There's a place where we'll see your face again
We'll see your face again

12 weeks!

I can't believe it, I am 12 weeks today! I know that there is not such a thing is a safe point but it means a lot to be done with the first trimester. These first weeks have not been easy on me, so many ups and downs (more ups, thankfully), so much stress, but it is all worth it!!!! I hope that my second trimester brings me the confidence and peace of mind that I long for...

Today is also my last day on progesterone. I am going to call my nurse to ask if I just stop cold turkey or have to go to a smaller dosage before (Any advise from all of you that have been on progesterone during you first trimester?). UTI is kicking my a$$. I guess it has to get worse before it gets better. I seriously had to go to the bathroom 10 times last time. I am exhausted because every 30 min or so I was up. The medicine is also making me very sick. Taking antibiotics + progesterone (twice a day) + prenatal is more than my stomach can handle and leaves a terrible taste on my mouth that makes eating very difficult. But again, it is all worth it!!!

for today I will try to forget the worries and celebrate this milestone. Maybe I'll start feeling comfortable enough to buy pregnancy books, to look at baby stuff, to daydream about bring a baby home

Have a great weekend

U.T.I

I Went to the doctor today and it was detected that I got a U.T.I...I haven't had one of those in such a long time. The Midwife was such a sweetheart. She gave me the news and said that she wanted to check me for possible vaginal infection and see how my cervix is because of the persistent spotting. By now everybody knows me at the office because I am there every week. I am also used to the pelvic exams, I have had 4 already. Anyways, everything looked good down there, no evidences of infection, cervix looked "healthy and closed" but still some very little brown mucus that may result and some additional spotting(sorry T.M.I). I also got to hear the baby, YAY!!! this time it took longer to find the baby (I was getting nervous) but she did, and the sound of the heartbeat filled my heart with happiness. Midwife prescribed some medicine to treat the U.T.I and my next appointment is on the 26th.
I almost forgot, nurse said to avoid sex during the days I am being treated for the UTI. SEX??? what is this???? my poor husband, not much action going on in our household in the past months....
THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR KIND WORDS AND WELL WISHES
love you all

and ... it is back!!!

I guess that I spoke too soon. I had some spotting today again. Still light brown but is back after 2 days of nothing. I called my doc and I am waiting for a reply. It has been almost one week now. I am starting getting concerned about infection. Last wednesday she examined me and did not see any indication of infection. Oh man, the fun never ends...

UPDATE

Nurse called back. She wants me to go see the midwife tomorrow to check for a possible urinary tract infection.

Living "Spotting free"

It looks like that baby heard our demands and I haven't had any spotting for 2 days (YAY!!!!) and I hope that stays that way. Do you hear that baby???? let''s keep mommy happy.
Thank you all for helping me to go through those difficult times. I am still very concerned, but I get very happy every time that I go to the bathroom and the TP comes back clean ... I am feeling some mild cramps, I am not sure if they are cramps or round ligament pain. I feel so heaviness and stretching in my belly
I am counting the days to Friday. I'll be 12 weeks and off progesterone!!!! I know that there is not such a thing is a safe point, but it will feel good to be done with the first trimester. To be honest , I want October to be over. This month brings bad memories of my loss 2 years ago. I have to keep repeating to myself : IT WILL BE DIFFERENT THIS TIME!!!!


Bellow is the latest baby pic...

Trying to stay positive

Here I am , still spotting. Very light brown discharge once a day early in the morning. I am trying to remember what the doc said, that I would have some more , but every time I see that on the TP my heart sinks. I am trying to stay positive and not freak out again, but I am scared. Last night I was very uncomfortable, mostly because my serious constipation and gas issue, but now I don't know if it is actually cramping. I went to work yesterday but I am very unmotivated and unfocused. Today I started cleaning the house (it is a HUGE MESS) than when I went to the bathroom there it was again... so I decided to just rest , rest and rest... I am 11 weeks today. Almost 3 months , I cant believe it!!!! I hope that this goes way and that that this dark lifts off. Please baby , stop scaring mommy

WHAT A SCARE! with update

Baby gave us a huge scare today. I was at work and went to the bathroom and there it was on the TP a big dark brown spot. My heart started racing , I wiped again and again and every time I saw brown blood and mucus...I ran to the phone, called my doc that told me to go for a sono. I called dh and I lost it right there at work, started crying , millions thoughts racing in my head. I gathered my stuff and went crying all the way to the docs office where dh met me. After what seemed to be an endless waiting (in a waiting room full of babies and huge bellies) we were called in. Sono showed a cute looking baby, with a strong heartbeat (167 bpm) and measuring a whole week ahead. What a relief! Doc did a quick cervix exam and could see what I was talking about, a brown mucus... maybe some old blood, but did not come from the uterus(cervix is nice and closed). I am also not cramping. Since my blood type is negative she had me taking the vaccine earlier and up my progesterone dosage. For now I am at home, resting, still scared. I hope that the spotting goes way and never returns. Doc told me that I will see some more brown spotting that is still "hanging " on my cervix... I am trying to control myself and don’t go to the bathroom every five second. It is never easy… Please keep me on my thoughts.

After all was over DH said that he kept his cool for me but he was dying inside and about to cry to.

UPDATE

Yesterday I spent the day at home resting, I had no spotting at all. Today first thing there it was , some more brown spotting. Doc told me to expect some more because she saw that brown mucus on my cervix when she did a pelvic exam. But it is always scary to see that. I hope that goes way. I have no cramping and I've been sick as a dog. Taking progesterone in the morning is really making me sick. I'll try to gather some strength to work today... Thank you all for the kind words of support.