IT'S ALL GOOD. Thank GOD!!!!

I just got home from my doc’s appointment. I feel so silly but I am glad that I went (I LOVE my doctor!!). ANYWAY, she got the Doppler and already said: "it might be too early to hear with the Doppler, but if I cant hear it we go for a scan" I LOVE MY DOCTOR ... than she started trying, my heart was almost jumping off my chest, I heard the blood rushing in my uterus, she moved around and after what seemed forever there it was " A STRONG HEARTBEAT... 160 bpm ...the sweetest sound! What a relief! I am so so happy and thankful. Thank you all for the kind words of support. It made all the difference in the world . Now I can enjoy my weekend knowing that baby is still here!!! LOVE YOU BABY!!!!
10 weeks today.

Still freaking out

My symptoms have not returned, at least not full force. I have no spotting or cramps but also so sore breats or morning sickness. Everybody says that is 'normal" but I am terrified. last night I couldn't sleep and today at work I can't function. Dh called to see how I was doing and I broke down at work. I hate that, but I started crying. Boss came to ask if everything is ok, my co-workers too. So I decided to call the doc. Nurse seemed concerned (not a good sing) and checked with the doctor that agreed to me see me tomorrow instead of next week. I am so glad that I called, but now I am terrified. I wish I could go home now , I can't concentrate, I am a complete emotional wreck. 3 weeks is more than I can handle between doc visits now. I think that I let out all my stress of these past weeks. I hope that turns out that everything is good and that I am just over reacting. Please please baby, be fine... Nurse did not say anything about a sonogram, just said: "doc wants to see you for a quick exam". Hopefuly tomorrow I'll be back with a good update.

where did my symptoms go?

I am freaking out. I went from feeling terribly sick all week last week to not feeling anything since Saturday. Not that I miss feeling that way , but I am worried. Last night I couldn't sleep and my next appointment is still on Oct 5th. My clothes still fit well and haven't noticed changes in my body... the only thing that was making "feel pregnant" was the all day sickness, now its gone, is it normal? I am so scared. I still feel tired, constipated and a bit bloated... Has anybody else experienced this?

9w3d today

I am a proud aunt!!!

My niece (dh's brother's daughter)is here! She was born last Tuesday September 18th. She weighed in at 8.7 lbs and 20.4 inches. She is so cute!!!!!! I visited her at the hospital the very next day. I am hoping and praying that my baby and her will grow up together along with my niece S (2 years old) and C (6 years old)!! I grew up with many cousins and I hope that my baby has this opportunity also. For now I am thankful for the life of this beautiful and healthy baby girl! WELCOME TO THIS WORLD BABY A... anty C loves you!


When my last niece was born (Oct 2005), I was pregnant (6 weeks), a few days later I m/c ... It was so painful. Watching her grow has been a constant reminder of what could have been. I hope that this time things will be different.
tomorrow 9 weeks! a 2 weeks to go until my next OB appointment

8w4d

Hi ladies,

I am still here, waiting anxiously for my next OB visit. These 4 weeks between appointments are excruciating. I hope that things are still progressing well. On the symptoms front I am sick and hungry all the time. Heartburn and constipation are killing me. I have to eat every 2 -3 hrs otherwise It feel very bad. I am also much tired that I was a few weeks back. However I haven't noticed many changes in my body. Boobs are not any bigger and not sore at all (still with blue veins), all my clothes still fit and are not even tight .I guess that is normal for first pregnancy, right? . I do notice that by the end of the day I am much much bloated and the base of my belly feels firm and more round... Thank God no bleeding or major cramps.

This weekend was my SIL baby shower. It was a beautiful shower and we decided to tell the news to our friends (family already knows). There was so much joy for both us that I got teary. It feels good to share our happiness, but the truth is that now I am terrified that so many people know. One thing made me cry, my husband met one of his friends and for the first time I hear him saying : I am going to be a father!!! it sounded so good, he will be such wonderful father...

I haven't bought anything pregnancy related yet, not even a book or anti-stretch marks body lotion... I guess I am waiting for Oct 5th to hear the heartbeat again (please baby!!!). Mom send me a package from Brazil with gifts for the baby, she is so so happy!!! I haven't opened it yet. I am still too scared. I hope that this feeling goes way soon…


8w4d and counting

update

Things are going well here. I had my first OB appointment last Friday after the u/s last Tuesday. It is just like a routine dr's visit, I had so many questions but ended up not asking many, it was very casual and she did not seem to be concern with my IF history. She just put on my chart : conceived with clomid!!! Waiting there with all those women with big bellied made me feel like I don't belong there. Even though I feel sick most of the time now and still feel an outsider. I've been having terrible nightmares that involve some bleeding and losing the baby... I am scared. Now that I saw and heard the heart bead I am attached to this baby, I love him or her already!
We also came out to a bunch of people this weekend. We wrote an e-mail about our struggles to conceive, how blessed we feel, and how no one should ever take their children for granted... I am humbled by the many messages that we go of people that have been praying and hoping for us to get pregnant. I felt their sincere happiness for us ! I said out loud: DO you see how much you're loved already baby????
I also found out that 2 friends of mine are also pg, and believe it or not, same due date. I am so happy to share with them this moment, but at the same time I am scared. Scared that something might happen and I am left with their pregnancies to remind me, do I make any sense???
My next appointment is only on October 5th. I have 4 weeks of waiting... I am hoping and praying that all keeps progressing well. Please baby keep growing!

7w3d today and counting...

I must add that both Sara and Baby blues are on my thougths and prayers this week!!! I am sorry blogsisters!!!! hugs for both of you

Sad news from Sara

I couldn't believe the news for Sara (http://saras-p.blogspot.com/) today. I am heartbroken for you my dear friend. I can't believe that Pygmy puff is gone, I can;t believe it. Please stop by her blog to send Sara some support. My thoughts and prayers are with you Sara. I am very sorry, I am very sorry

Baby's first video!

Hi ladies,
Thank you so much for the sweet messages of congratulations. Dh and I and the rest of our families are so so happy and thankful for this huge blessing in our lives. it all feels so delicate and fragile, as if it can be taken away and any minute, it is like living in a glass house. But I'll take a day at a time and keep praying for baby to keep on growing and also praying for all of you waiting for your BFP... praying that it comes sooner than later.

Since Yesterday I started feeling very sick. It is not morning sickness, it is all day sickness... but is all good.

Here is the video of my first u/s...
http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-5618589856262761826


I've seen it a million times already.

PRAISE THE LORD!!!!! (update with picture

I am happy to inform that today's u/s was just great. We saw and heard the baby!!!! I was so so nervous. The nurse said, here is the gestational sac ... and I opened my eyes and it looked like it was empty , and she moved around and there he/she was with a little heart beating way. It is an amazing site, than she put the sound for us to hear, OMG, OMG... DH's eyes grew so big, he could not believe it, I started crying.... so fantastic. The heartbeat was 128, the nurse said was very strong and baby is measuring 6w3d. I thought that I was 6w4d along (based when I believe I Ovulated), the nurse said not to worry because the margin of error for the machine are 3 days. For now I'll be just happy, I feel so relieved, grateful, happy, humble by this entire experience . GOD IS GOOD!!!
Thank you all for all the great support for putting up with my worries. YOU ARE THE BEST!!!

We pass another phase, now on to the next.... Keep growing baby, keep growing healthy and strong!!!!

I'll see my doc on Firday, today was only the scan to put my mind at peace.


I am at work now, tonight I'll post the pics!

waiting for tomorrow

Tomorrow is the D day. U/s is scheduled for 10:40 am. I am so so nervous, I could barely sleep last night, I kept dreaming about the u/s. In my first dream the doc said that I am expecting 5 babies!!! Than I woke up, had another dream, I could hear the heartbeat, so sweet!!!!!! I had the same dream over and over again. I am counting the hours for tomorrow, I am hoping for the best but getting ready for the worse. Please , please God, let this be

Friday I had my first pregnancy vomiting episode. The time and place where less than perfect but I was happy about it. I went to see dh playing in a Cuban restaurant, late at night and I got hungry, the lights and the loud sound made me dizzy, and than it came... I felt miserable and people looking at me as if I was drunk... LOL but deep down I was pretty happy! LOL. I felt nauseous a couple of more times during the week, nothing major but some gagging ... I hope that this is a good sign.

Wish me luck ladies, I hope that tomorrow I have great news for you all