Not easy (with update)

It was a very challenging weekend, I think the worst since Lyla was born. I felt so powerless, my poor baby cried , cried and cried... sometimes for one whole hour. Her ears hurt, she could not breath through her nose, she was coughing and could not eat well . She did not sleep much (neither did us). Because of her very high temps (103 one time) and because she would wake up every 30 min or so I has her on our room, on our bed ( I know is not a very wise decision, but I was in survival mode). The drugs are starting to work and she has not had a fever in 24 hours. The prevacid is a really great medicine, the reflux is 100% better. Even though she is much much better I wish I did not have to send her to day care this week at all, it is not fair, but again I have no choice. The feeling of guilt weighs very high on my shoulders. DH and I are so stressed out we can barely talk with each other without starting an argument. He was been great through it all though, really helped me with her during these difficult days. I need to sleep, I meed some rest... I am sick too, I got her cold ... but the wheels need to keep on turning and today the routine starts all over again

to to show you how good of a baby Lyla is... as soon as she feels a little better she smiles like nothing is wrong at all


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Update

When I was pregnant I called the doctor's office all the time. One nurse I said I was very demanding, but I did not care. I learned to trust my instincts and fight for Lyla. Nos as I mother, I feel the same way. I call the doc's office all the time and I am sure they call me demanding, but I don;t care. Lyla's was or her 4th day of antibiotics, even though she does not have a fever she is not sleeping well and crying a lot. I called the doc's office just to see if they want to follow up her progress. I thought twice if I should call or not since she was there on Saturday. I am glad I did. Lyla is resistant to this new antibiotic as well. It worked last time after trying one that did not work. They are changing her to a much stronger antibiotic, a combination of 2 different ones. I am so upset with this news. I wonder if I should ask for a second opinion but at the same time her hearing can be damaged if this infection as not taken care of asap. She has a perforated ear drum, poor girl, no wonder she is crying so much. The doc said that it would heal itself but she wants to keep a closer eye on her and see her every month . I was told that is very common in children that go to daycare, because they catch the "bugs" that are already very resistant to antibiotics . I feel so guilt that she has to be exposed to this. The good news is that her lugs are clear and she is not losing weight (17 lbs 4 oz) , still has a great appetite.

I was told to expect diarrhea and tummy problems , great!!!!!!
My poor baby