unstable ground

I leave in a constant fear that the other shoe will drop... and in my case it always does. I've been living in unstable ground for a long time: infertility, infidelity, divorce... even though we are divorced, whatever happens to him still directly affects me . Today he called me to tell me that due to visa issues will no longer be able to work starting tomorrow. It will be another month until he knows if his visa is approved at all, if not he has 30 days to leave. I can't afford Lyla alone here. Realistically speaking he will not able be to afford child support from Brazil... Please pray that his visa is renewed because if he leaves I don't have many more options left either. He is doing whatever he can. he wants to stay here for lyla, I know that! I just wish I did not depend on him for anything and this way I would stop being affected every time something happens to him. I am running out of reserves to keep on overcoming so many obstacles . Sigh... can I catch a break pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeee????????????