CD14 today and no sign of Ovulation. I felt lots of "ovulation-like" pain 2 days ago, but my temp is still low, no cm, and got a negative OPK yesterday and today.
Just like my last cycle on clomid (ovulated cd22) I think the drug is not doing its magic... except for the terrible hot flashes. It seems like it actually makes me O even later than normal, how can this be possible? maybe I need higher dosage (I am on 50mg), maybe I am just unlucky.
I've decided that I try the 3 consecutive clomid + progesterone cycles anyway so that when I see a RE (after September) I can say that I tried this already. Maybe I'll ask for 100mg next time.
2 and ½ years of being trapped on infertility hell has left me exhausted and unmotivated. I am so tired of trying and not getting nowhere, I am tired of not knowing what is wrong with me, I am so frustrated with clomid, and I overwhelmed with my new job... not a very happy place to be at. I just want to move on , to be given a change to fight harder… I hate that right now fertility treatment does not fit into our budget. Right now I have to keep on waiting for a miracle because that is all I have. I feel empty and not al all where I though I would be at my age.
DH and I will celebrate 10 years together next month… I so wanted to be PG and feel that our lives came full circle when we celebrate this very important date. However,I don’t even let myself dwell too long on that possibility because I am tired of having my dreams crushed. and SO I WAIT....
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I am sorry that you aren't feeling good, IF has that effect on us, it's horrible to have to do this for so long with no light at the end of the tunnel. Hoping the clomid kicks in soon and you get a BFP out of this cycle!! Hang in there sweetie :)
I was annoyed by my (lack of) response to Clomid too. I was expecting a wonder drug. If this cycle doesn't work, I'll be curious to see if my RE wants to increase the dosage or anything.
I know what you mean about being exhausted. I don't even have enough energy to be particularly hopeful about this cycle.
Hugs.
This was such a strong post. I feel the same way about crushed dreams.
I am so sorry. It can be really hard to stay motivated. Big Hug.
I am so exhausted with being stuck with IF too and I dread having my dreams crushed, again and again. I hear you and I'm with you Cibele. Our time will come, we need to hold on to that dream.
Sounds like Clomid is not a good match for you. I believe it affects estrogen, and maybe estrogen is not the hormone that you need altered. I would definitely talk to the doc about this.
If your dosage is increased, don't go any higher than 150 mg. I let my RE talk me into 200 mg., even though I had read that 150 is the absolute max you should take. I never want to do that again.
Maybe you will O soon, though. Fingers crossed!
I was not only annoyed but PISSED OFF AS HELL - when i took clomid the first time and it did not even make me ovulate but made me HAteful and miserable. If 50 doesn't work at for 100 next month. See if that does the trick
clomid sucks. i'm sorry you're feeling down.
Clomid is an evil, awful drug.
I hope hyou are feeling better soon.
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