HOPE

Every month is the same thing, I start the cycle sad, devastated for another BFN... after a few days the cloud lifts off and Hope sets in. Clomid , early ovulation, sex marathon.... It has to work! 1 DPO, HOPE has unpacked her bags and make her self comfortable. I always imagine that I can be 1 day pregnant (silly me), that things can be different this time. As the days post ovulation goes by, HOPE starts packing her bags again (is always a short stay).7DPO, even despite all the progesterone I am taking I don't have any symptoms, no sore breasts, nothing! I can either try to fool HOPE into staying a little longer and just let her go, at least until next cycle. I know all too well how my cycles end, and what lack of symptoms means, so it is hard to convince HOPE to stay. Sorrow is waiting her turn in line along with AF, I've told them they are not welcome, but they insist in showing up. Even if she goes, I hope that she returns next month, I need HOPE to keep on fighting.

I bought this last month, It will someday be on my baby's crib as a reminder of how long I hoped to see him/her sleeping peacefully and what a blessing that day will be!